Recently I experienced such a profound betrayal that I couldn’t sleep at night. As I attempted to come to grips with the situation, I began to notice musical messages from the universe.
Part of what led to the betrayal was a complete misreading of my motives. When I walked into the dry cleaner shortly after I received the distressing news, an Animals song from 1965 was playing. As I entered the establishment I heard the lyrics, “I’m just a soul whose intentions are good, oh Lord, please don’t let me be misunderstood.” I laughed out loud.
My daily meditations provided some respite from my distress. One morning, however, I just couldn’t stop the voices in my head from railing against what had happened. Rather than feeling relief after meditation, I felt frustration.
Later that day, I met a couple friends for lunch. As I arrived at the restaurant, I heard the lyrics “Don’t let them win” from the Crowded House song “Don’t Dream It’s Over”. I knew the message was not about the personalities involved but the voices in my head that interrupted my meditation. Again, I had to laugh.
When I returned home from lunch, a message on the answering machine regarding the situation prompted a meltdown. I called my friend Lila in tears. Lila insisted that I was close to a breakthrough. She encouraged me to keep exploring and through my sobs, I blurted out a statement that hit the core of the issue.
Since it was a beautiful day, I took off on a bike ride as a way to nurture myself and mull over the truth that I’d discovered. When I returned home, I decided to continue my self-care by watching a movie that I enjoy, Mr. Magoriums’s Wonder Emporium. I fell asleep early in the video.
Toward the end of the movie, my husband came home. His entrance woke me shortly before my favorite line. Mr. Magorium says to the character Mahoney, “Your life is an occasion, rise to it.”
Since I was still a little groggy, I watched the movie credits. During the credits, the Flaming Lips song, “Love the World You Find”, played. These lyrics caught my attention: “If I could tell your future, I’d say love the world you find. In the dark times and the hard questions, let some sunshine in your mind.”
It was exactly what I needed to hear in that moment.
Although I could not have orchestrated these signs, I felt grateful that I noticed them. It reminded me yet again that this journey is so much larger than I can figure out and that I always have what I need. What felt like the ultimate betrayal on Monday at 9:15 a.m., by Thursday afternoon proved to be a catalyst that took me to new levels of freedom.
How do you stay aware of ‘messages’ that you receive?